I Did The Thing

Today I signed the last paper.
Five names. My team. My name.
Same slow hand I used on day one.

I asked Patrice can she be there July 15th.
She said I have been available.
I read it three times.
She was waiting for me to ask.
That one hit me.

I emailed Marco at 8:14.
I did not stare at my phone.
I lied. I stared.

My sister called after. I let it ring.
Then I called her back.
I said guess what. She said what.
I said I did the thing.
She said I know.

The agency will see the names.
They will know it is not just a job.
I do not care if they know.
Okay. I care a little.

I miss Mum's salon.
The cream smell.
I want her to see me sign my name.
Not the show. Just the pen.

I wrote at the bottom of my page:
I am enough.
I wrote it so I have to mean it.