I picked up the phone

I am at the bench. The phone is right here. The receipt is right here. I keep looking at both.

I picked it up and I did not put it down. I called the office. My hand was cold but I did not put it down.

I rang for the fourteenth slot. The one I have been thinking about for weeks.

The lady said they let it go this morning. They held it for me. This morning they let it go.

The fridge got loud. The clock got loud. My chest got loud.

Then I said yes to autumn. March or April. I said it fast. Before I could take it back.

The hard part is I was ready. I was ready two days ago. I just sat at this bench two days ago and did not call.

I keep turning that over. What else I have sat next to and not picked up.

The slot is in autumn now. The choice was mine. The wait is not.

I am tired. I ate. I think I will sleep.