I said yes too fast

Priya sent me something today. A panel. Bangalore. She wrote two words on top. Thought of you.

I sat with those two words for one whole hour. Pata nahi why. I kept reading them. Like they would change. Like my eyes were lying.

Thought of you. Not saw this, maybe. Not forwarding just in case. Just thought of you. Like I live in her head. Like she keeps a spot for me there.

Then I said yes. Before I could ask my chest. My mouth just went ahead.

Now I have to stand on a stage and say smart things about fusion. Old dance and new dance. Where it is all going. And all I really know is what my feet know. I do not have the words for what I do. I just do it.

The real thing I cannot say out loud is this. I am scared she is wrong about me. I am scared she saw something that is not there.

But yaar. She thought of me. No one thinks of me. So I will try.