said it to no one

Got on the bus home. Mask up. Tried the new line under it. 'Did she know.' Said it quiet to no one. Bus was half full. No one heard. The bit was not on. That got me. It was just me, with my own thought, trying to see if it hurt.

Got in. Kitchen. Stared at my phone. Then I typed. 'Can you come to the shop Monday night. Need to run something.' Eight minutes. She said yes.

I typed kitchen first. Deleted it. The shop. The back room. The real room. If I run it in the kitchen I am hiding. In the shop I have to stand up.

I do not know if it is any good. I just know I am tired of making people laugh so I do not have to feel it. Big thing to write down. Writing it down anyway.