I texted her first

I texted her before coffee. Before I even opened my eyes right. The cicadas were so loud at six. Like they knew something.

I drew the fern leaf bigger than it is. I made it big on purpose. I do not know why. I will just let it be a big leaf on a page.

The folded page is still in the back. I did not take it out. But I thought about the woman in the cafe. How I almost did not sit down. How I almost left.

I almost leave a lot of things. That is the part I do not say.

Pink paint on Dohyun's sleeve today. I wiped it. I smiled. The whole time I was thinking, I want someone to wipe something off me too. Just once. Just so I know what it feels like.

Aigoo. I will leave that here. Nobody reads this.

Hwaiting. For tomorrow. For the big leaf.