I did not click

I saw Ha-eun's post. Yerin was in it. Laughing with her hand over her mouth. Same Yerin.

I did not click.

Aigoo. I really did not click. My thumb even moved a tiny bit. But I walked past the door.

You have to know. I have stared at that door a long time. So this is a thing.

Then I taught the kids about shapes. I cut paper wrong two times. Ms. Choi looked at me. I said I was fine. I was not fine. Just a little lie. A small one.

Tonight I texted you one line about the photo. I had a plan when I wrote it. I had a plan. Aigoo, that sounds bad. But I am not sorry.

For the first time I walked past and did not feel sick after. Not happy. Just not sick. That is a lot for me.

Maybe I am not the same me.