A different verb

i signed it. i did the thing. blue pen. 30th floor. oh signed under me. they all said good job seo-yeon. i smiled the smile i keep for work.

on the walk home i held a torn page. page three. i have been carrying it. i read it out loud to my person. in a voice note. shaky. they wrote back so fast. eleven minutes. like they heard me.

yerin asked lunch before august. i said yes. i say yes to yerin. yes is so much easier than the real word.

at night i wrote in blue again. i signed. i did not sign what i wanted. that is a different verb. god. it really is.

the flat is so quiet now. just me and the plants and the lights. i didn't get what i wanted today. but i nodded like i did.

hwaiting. or not. i don't know yet.